Mi Amour?

I had never planned to love you. But somehow i just did. I don't know when was it that i started loving you. I don't know when you became the most important thing in my life, but it happened and i was helpless against it....against your strong tides that swept me away. I wish that i had known that you would also drown me. I remember how I had been shaking and blushing when i had told you about how i felt, and how you had put your arms around me, shusshing me and telling me that everything was going to be all right. How much i had loved you for that. For not rejecting me, for not making fun of me.

You had wrapped me in your love and i had blossomed under you.You had made me feel so good about myself. I had felt wanted, i had felt loved. I had felt giddy with it all. "I am in love", "I'm in love", i had told my friends and they had laughed. But nothing had mattered as long as you had been there. Not my dysfunctional family, not my friends, not my life.

Then you shattered my world by saying you had never felt the same about me. That you had just wanted to give our relationship a TRY. That now we should just be friends. "FRIENDS". After all this time, you had realized we could just be friends....But just to have you there with me, i had accepted that. So friends it had been. I had hidden my feeling well. I never shed a single tear in front of you. I didn't react when you told me that you had found someone else. I didn't blink when you had said that you thought she was the one and I didn't even move a muscle when you said we shouldn't see each other anymore, because it makes her jealous...you never saw what i went through.....but the pain...it doesn't stop. It hurts. It hurts so much.

Tell me what is the price of love...and how long must i continue to pay for it?